Yesterday I spoke about discerning God’s voice that was by all accounts beneficial. Today I want to talk about discerning God’s voice when it doesn’t seem beneficial, in the moment.
Take yesterday for example. Shortly after finishing the blog post, I felt an uneasiness in my spirit of abandonment from God. Instead of pushing it aside like normal, I asked “What are you trying to tell me in this moment?”
Maybe for the first time in my life, it was so crystal clear, not audible, but clear. He wants me to feel the same way that Jesus felt when He felt separated from the Father at the Cross.
Now why would God want that? Let’s take a look at what became an anchor verse when I was in the hospital last spring after the suicide attempt.
1 Peter 4:12-13 says, 12 Dear friends, do not be surprised at the fiery ordeal that has come on you to test you, as though something strange were happening to you. 13 But rejoice inasmuch as you participate in the sufferings of Christ, so that you may be overjoyed when his glory is revealed.
What I have loved about this verse is it says “when the trial” comes, not if. You see one of the ways of being healed is through brokenness, so that God can heal in no ways that humans can understand.
It is on the other side of the pain where the Fruits of the Spirit (love, joy, peace, etc) can be felt.
So with that I say, bring on my Gethsemane moment dear Lord. I joyfully accept. After all, it is really no longer that I that live, but Christ that lives within me.
Have you ever had a hard time discerning God’s voice in a situation? There are so many voices in the world today from advertisements, unsolicited advice and ungodly counsel. Normally, it’s pretty easy to discern God’s voice in these situations. But what about from people that are for you?
This is a subtle, but powerful way the enemy can attack a person. Take today for example. I was at my neurofeedback session today and asked my doctor about a different type of therapy that the Spirit inside me feels may be an option. My doctor believed “it would totally undo” all the work I have done. So I should listen to the doctor 100%? Wrong.
This is where it is important to have a personal relationship with God. I was able to ask God, would this other therapy disrupt the work done unto this point? By being still and listening to God, the answer was a resounding NO.
Does this mean I’m going start this different therapy tomorrow? Of course not. My only caution is that even the people with the best of intentions, do not always know best. It’s important to learn how to use God’s voice as a filter for incoming information.
It’s amazing when God starts working in a person’s life how He targets areas that need refining.
In my case, it was that money was my sense was my worth/security in life. I’ve spent the past two years trying to dismantle that belief to almost no avail. So how does God target that thinking? By taking away your money and having you totally dependent on Him of course! Oh the thrill of trusting God!
Just this week, I started my last two weeks of therapy called neurofeedback. Because it is not covered by insurance, it was a rather large out of pocket expense that has the bank account approaching zero.
Naturally, the old ways of thinking started firing off. “If the bank account reaches zero, I’m going to die!” is some of the catastrophic thinking my brain goes to.
In those moments, I have to make an effort to keep my eyes on the prize: The love and joy that comes from God alone.
Matthew 6:33 states, “But seek ye first the Kingdom of God and His righteousness and all these things shall be added unto you.”
It’s easy to get sidetracked on the goal. It is those moments where I have to stand on the promises of God. I pray we all have the courage to stay the course and not get sidetracked by distractions to our goals.