Last week, I met with a therapist that I had worked with in the past. Before walking in, I was getting the word “trust”. At some point in the session, the therapist mentioned the word, “betrayal”.
I said, “I heard of that word. What does that mean?”
She said, ” It means that something happened that destroyed your trust in them.”
Later that evening, God brought me back to a place when I would cry out to Him as a three-year old to take away the fear of death. Nothing. Silence. At that young age, my view was I could not trust God.
As I sat there, I felt this deep emotional pain, that I have never experienced. It felt it would have been better to have a knife stabbed in the heart or a gunshot to the head than to feel betrayed by a loving God.
And if I felt I could not trust God, I also did not I feel like I could trust people.
Betrayal is a wound that can run so deep, that will infiltrate into every relationship a person has. But it does have an amazing benefit.
I now can look back and how this has been a blessing. I can now say like Paul, “Concerning this I implored the Lord three times that it might leave me. And He has said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness.” Most gladly, therefore, I will rather boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may dwell in me. (2 Corinthians 12:8-9 NASB)
And this year when I have felt the thorn, I have shouted for joy and said, “Yes! I shall boast of this, so the power of God dwells in me!” What a blessing!
Prayer: Father God, I pray for everyone that is experiencing a feeling of betrayal by You. Let them know that is a lie. I pray you come and speak to them in a personal way and to let them know you see everytime that person has been hurt. I thank you for your faithfulness when we experience hurt. I pray that the Holy Spirit comes in to comfort you and ask you God to come in and heal broken hearts and to fill us with your love. I pray this in Jesus name. Amen.