Radical Obedience

Tomorrow, April 27th, will be the one year anniversary of my suicide attempt. From the outside, it could appear that I was at my weakest moment. However, I believe I was at my strongest moment.  In that moment, I learned what radical obedience is all about.

I recently became comfortable talking about that night and here is what I remember.  I can remember God telling me “Try and take your life.  I won’t let you. How much do you trust me Marc? Do you trust me with your life?”  As I reflect on that moment, I tried to find something in the Bible that I could relate this to.  Almost instantly the story of Abraham and Isaac came to mind.

The Lord told Abraham to sacrifice his son Isaac, but at the last moment the Lord spared Isaac’s life.  Here is what it says in Genesis 22:12:

12 “Do not lay a hand on the boy,” he said. “Do not do anything to him. Now I know that you fear God, because you have not withheld from me your son, your only son.”

Now why would God do something like this.  God wanted to test Abraham because He had an awesome plan for his life, that could only be found through radical obedience.  Genesis 22:17-18 states:

17 I will surely bless you and make your descendants as numerous as the stars in the sky and as the sand on the seashore. Your descendants will take possession of the cities of their enemies, 18 and through your offspring[b] all nations on earth will be blessed,[c]because you have obeyed me.”

I don’t claim to know exactly why God allows tests and trials in our lives, but I do know this. Each test is perfectly situated for where you are right now.  God is a God of love and He wants the best for His children.

The next time you go through a test remember the source.  All tests and trials come from God and are perfectly designed to bring you closer to Him.

Grace and Peace,

Marc Kutylowski

Welcome to Wheat or Weeds

Welcome! Why did I choose the title Wheat or Weeds?  Well it comes out of Matthew 13:24-30.  Here’s what it says:

24 Jesus told them another parable: “The kingdom of heaven is like a man who sowed good seed in his field. 25 But while everyone was sleeping, his enemy came and sowed weeds among the wheat, and went away. 26 When the wheat sprouted and formed heads, then the weeds also appeared.

27 “The owner’s servants came to him and said, ‘Sir, didn’t you sow good seed in your field? Where then did the weeds come from?’

28 “‘An enemy did this,’ he replied.

“The servants asked him, ‘Do you want us to go and pull them up?’

29 “‘No,’ he answered, ‘because while you are pulling the weeds, you may uproot the wheat with them. 30 Let both grow together until the harvest. At that time I will tell the harvesters: First collect the weeds and tie them in bundles to be burned; then gather the wheat and bring it into my barn.’”

This very much describes my spiritual journey over the last 4 years.  There has been so much wheat in my life, but has been difficult to see because of the weeds that were also there.  Ultimately, God decided to leave the weeds in my life not to torment me, but if the weeds were pulled out, the wheat would have been uprooted as well.  And that would have been tragic

I look forward to updating the blog once a week.  Some of the topics I look to cover are: profiting through suffering, why does God allow suffering, sharing my experience and much more!  If you have any suggestions, feel free to contact me.  It is my hope that this blog serves as a source of inspiration to you whether you are currently on the mountain top or down in the valley.

Grace and Peace,

Marc Kutylowski