God Has a Plan For Your Life, Part 2

During this blog post, I would like to take the time to those who may seem like they are “floundering” in life.

It’s to those people that may seem like they have it all together, but still feel like something is missing. It may also be to the person that is out of work and the weight of this world is closing in on them.

Wherever you are, it is my prayer that this will be an encouragement to get on God’s plan for your life and stop surrendering to the world.

First, I know that there may be some very fine salesmen that may be reading this post. You may have accumulated a lot of money over the years, but no matter how much wealth you acquire there feel like something is missing.

Next, to those recent college graduates who may be looking to start their career. You have made through college “successfully”, but still lack a sense of direction in life.

Finally, to the person that has been entrenched in their career for years, and seems scare to venture out of the norm and onto God’s plan for their life.

All three of these types of people may haven’t different circumstances in life, but they have a commonality, they are out of God’s will for their lives.  With that comes stress, depression, feelings of lack and other insercurities.

Getting on God’s plan will give you the “fruit of the spirit:

“But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness:

You don’t need to be a rocket scientist to on God’s plan for your life. Just a simple prayer. Just say:

Lord Jesus, I know I have been of your will for many years. I don’t know what you have planned for me, but I know it is the best. I repent of my sins, come into my life and transform.

A simple prayer like that could just transform your life. Just sit back and watch God bring heavenly connections into your life.

I know He will. He did it for me and He will do it for you.

I still marvel that God has called me to preach and used my favorite preacher, Charles Stanley, to help call out His will for my life.

I’ve posted this before, but it’s worth posting again.  Here it is and God bless!

HALT! STOP! ROADBLOCK!

Have you ever had a moment in life that doesn’t make any sense?  I am sure you have as well. You try and rationalize and that just frustrates you even more.

Here is what I have discovered in these confusing and conflicting situations.  God is in the process of lining up the pieces for something awesome to happen.

Take my Electroconvulsive (ECT) Therapy sessions I have been going through.  I am scheduled for 12 sessions and everything was going great until the 11th procedure.  When I woke up I barely knew who I was, who my mom was or even the year.  Everything around me just seemed different and not in a good way.

And the weirdness didn’t stop there.  I became hostile towards people.  Hostile towards my parents.  Hostile under my breath because a church friend was 5 minutes late for coffee.  The main frustration is that I will be starting an internship in a few weeks and I would hate for something like this to get in the way.

Wednesday was not any better.  I became so belligerent that I had my parents call the cops on me.

The officer asked me, “Why don’t you come over here so we can talk?”

My response, “Like Hell!” (Note to self: This is a quick way to get handcuffed and kindly escorted to the back of a cruiser)

The raging didn’t stop at the hospital.  The staff had strap me down to subdue me and give me an injection.

Today is the first day I am having some semblance of a normal day with thoughts and various activities)

Why do I tell you all of this?  The reason that I do is that show that I although I may not know the reason God allowed to behave like this, I have a enough trust and confidence that God is working in my life and churning up the impurities buried deep with in me.  Or Maybe this is God’s way of keeping me in check.

Also, this blog is is to inspire one another when going through difficult moments in life. I refuse to write a bubble gum blog.

Grace and Peace,

Marc Kutylowski

Thank You Everyone!

Over the past week or so, I have been sensing my depression has been lifting and the joy of the Lord I have waited so long for is about to burst through this cocoon that I have been in.  I have been having these weird sensations running throughout my body and head. At times it feels like their is this electricity that is kindling throughout my head.

I’ve always heard the phrase that “Jesus lives in your heart”, but was not able to grasp that concept. Now it feels like there is this opening takening place in my heart. It feels like a fracture that slowy opens and closes. Like something is trying to poke their head out.

It’s hard to put into words, but I just have a sense that something amazing is about to happen in my life. The restoration that I have read so much about, heard about and believed I feel is upon me.

It’s awesome to look back more than two years ago when everything was seemingly going great, but praying to God there must be more to life than what I was experiencing. Little did I know that would send me into the deepest of depressions that resulted in a suicide attempt last year. It’s awesome to be able to accept that that was God’s plan for my life to bring me into His will for my life.

How would I be an effective minister if I didn’t understand the emotional pain that people go through?  How would I be able to provide Godly counsel to people if I was ignorant of God’s ways?  The answer is I wouldn’t be able to.

It’s been amazing how God has protected me and kept me safe while in the valley. I was let go from my job back in May of 2014.  Now for those of you that know me, I always struggled with money. Even if it was spending $2 on a cup of coffee. Not knowing where my next dollar was going to come in was extremely stressful for me.

But you know what? I still have about the same amount of money in my bank account as I did in May of 2014.  Not because of anything that I have done, but its because I now recognize that “My God will supply all of my needs, according to his riches and glory” For a person that worried about a $2 cup of coffee I can’t wait to give tithe (and then some) back to God. It’s just amazing.

As I prepare to start an internship with my local church in the next month, I wanted to take this opportunity to thank you all for helping get to this point. You really are God’s angels. So thank you to Northstar Church, Good Shepard Church and Dr. Charles Stanley and his team at In Touch Ministries. Thank you to Christ Hospital (x2), Bethesda Hospital, Good Samaritan Hospital, Linder Center of Hope (x2) and the Kettering Health Network. Thank you to Skyland Trail in Atlanta, the people of Memphis and my family at First Baptist Atlanta. Thank you to all of my friends and family.  Thank you to the people that walked out of my life because they would of been getting in God’s way.  It means so much to me. Finally, thank you God for not letting me believe the lies of the world. Thank you not letting me believe that I had bipolar disorder, BPD, OCD, and I’m sure a few other ones :). Thank you for letting me only believe that I was only missing the love and joy that you can provide!

God has a plan everyone’s life.  I pray you ask God to show you what it is and step back and let God go to work

I can’t wait to see what God does through me in my life!

Discerning God’s Voice: Part 2

Yesterday I spoke about discerning God’s voice that was by all accounts beneficial. Today I want to talk about discerning God’s voice when it doesn’t seem beneficial, in the moment.

Take yesterday for example. Shortly after finishing the blog post, I felt an uneasiness in my spirit of abandonment from God. Instead of pushing it aside like normal, I asked “What are you trying to tell me in this moment?”

Maybe for the first time in my life, it was so crystal clear, not audible, but clear. He wants me to feel the same way that Jesus felt when He felt separated from the Father at the Cross.

Now why would God want that? Let’s take a look at what became an anchor verse when I was in the hospital last spring after the suicide attempt.

1 Peter 4:12-13 says, 12 Dear friends, do not be surprised at the fiery ordeal that has come on you to test you, as though something strange were happening to you. 13 But rejoice inasmuch as you participate in the sufferings of Christ, so that you may be overjoyed when his glory is revealed.

What I have loved about this verse is it says “when the trial” comes, not if. You see one of the ways of being healed is through brokenness, so that God can heal in no ways that humans can understand.

It is on the other side of the pain where the Fruits of the Spirit (love, joy, peace, etc) can be felt.

So with that I say, bring on my Gethsemane moment dear Lord. I joyfully accept. After all, it is really no longer that I that live, but Christ that lives within me.

Welcome to Wheat or Weeds

Welcome! Why did I choose the title Wheat or Weeds?  Well it comes out of Matthew 13:24-30.  Here’s what it says:

24 Jesus told them another parable: “The kingdom of heaven is like a man who sowed good seed in his field. 25 But while everyone was sleeping, his enemy came and sowed weeds among the wheat, and went away. 26 When the wheat sprouted and formed heads, then the weeds also appeared.

27 “The owner’s servants came to him and said, ‘Sir, didn’t you sow good seed in your field? Where then did the weeds come from?’

28 “‘An enemy did this,’ he replied.

“The servants asked him, ‘Do you want us to go and pull them up?’

29 “‘No,’ he answered, ‘because while you are pulling the weeds, you may uproot the wheat with them. 30 Let both grow together until the harvest. At that time I will tell the harvesters: First collect the weeds and tie them in bundles to be burned; then gather the wheat and bring it into my barn.’”

This very much describes my spiritual journey over the last 4 years.  There has been so much wheat in my life, but has been difficult to see because of the weeds that were also there.  Ultimately, God decided to leave the weeds in my life not to torment me, but if the weeds were pulled out, the wheat would have been uprooted as well.  And that would have been tragic

I look forward to updating the blog once a week.  Some of the topics I look to cover are: profiting through suffering, why does God allow suffering, sharing my experience and much more!  If you have any suggestions, feel free to contact me.  It is my hope that this blog serves as a source of inspiration to you whether you are currently on the mountain top or down in the valley.

Grace and Peace,

Marc Kutylowski