Today was my first day of my trauma resolution therapy and on the surface it seemed like a miserable day. Old thought patterns of feeling unworthy, not mattering, seemed to flood my mind. It made me feel like I was starting back at square one in my recovery. I felt hopeless again today.
But I’ve seen this deceiving trick played by the devil one too many times. Whenever, I go through a tough day or two now, there is almost always a new level of freedom that awaits on the other side. God is teaching me to be patient and boy is that a tough lesson I am learning.
I’ve learned this lesson out of Colossians 3:2 that says “Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things.”
This means despite FEELING like today was a bad day, I can change my perspective now. God is in the process of refining my rough edges and that requires a little bit of pain. I am learning not to live off of my feelings, but what God says.
God says in Proverbs 3:5, “Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding”
It doesn’t say to trust only when I feel like it or when I feel good. This verse makes it crystal clear the pitfalls of falling into my limited mindset.
A good way to combat my negative thinking is start reciting verses from the Book of Psalms. Psalm 27:1 has become my battle cry. It states, “The Lord is my light and my salvation of whom shall I fear?” This single verse reminds me of seven principles from God. I matter. I am not bad, I have power, I can do good, I am love, I am worthy, I am joy.
Prayer: Heavenly Father, surround us with Your presence when the enemy attacks. Help us to not become bitter with You as You are the source of our hope and strength. And help us to recognize the lessons we learn from You are not done out of a place of punishment, but love. Father, thank you that we are becoming more and more like Your son Jesus Christ everyday. And then sharing Christ’s light in the fallen world we live in. I pray this in Jesus name. Amen.